However, Kelvin was by my side so i couldn't really show it la
he was too excited....
So i just listened to my music and read Ecplise..
It was kinda good as a mood lifter or a distractor haha
i was missing them too much...
Then went up to genting.
the stinking hotel was stupid..
we lived at the first floor and the first and only view u get...
is a rubbish dump..
so u cannot open the window cause it will be smelly
and who knows what germs they carry
but if u dun open the window.....
there is no air ventilation!
ARGH!
then we went shopping...
quite glad that kelvin left me to shop alone
then i got show my emotions without hiding much
was really quite emotional but couldn't make out what is it haha
then i went to Baskin robbins to eat ice cream alone...
haha. really emo mah.
even strawberry ice cream or Rum&Rasin did not cheer me up
as i watch the couple beside me hugging....
so nice to have someone that needed u...
and i finally realised what i was missing..
the feeling of being needed..
isn't it great to have someone who needed u and misses u..
i wondered back to sg..
was there really anyone that really needed me.
Answer = no... except my parents maybe
haha. i tink its the Great Vampire saga that make me feel this way XD
but it is really quite sad.
Then went for the concert which was quite ok la
the talking part qutie boring cause i dunno what SAMMI Cheng toking abt..
she talked in Canto
then the dancing part was very nice
but later when we go back to the hotel,
i was really very tired
so i slept early haha.
hmmm woke up and had breakfast with Kelvin's family and sat the bus back
obviously, emptiness took over me once again
but i was in the coach so decided not to show it..
i arrived at SG at around 6+ and father came to fetch me la
Then i started smsing ppl..
its quite hurtful huh..
when ppl do sweet things to you but u noe tat its all fake and they gonna leave someday..
Tinking abt all the good times and then tinking abt all those might be fake
only leaves the hole in my chest bigger and more painful
when u noe that none of these ppl actually needs u or misses u
just that u go bothering them...
somemore u will have to hide it.... haizz...