haizz... todaex is valentine but nothing gets better.... although i get a hug frm all and everything seem so happy... but then when i looked at my gor oppsite his class... i wave to him but he ignored mi... When i was going home... tinking abt all the things that happen... was so concentrated that i almost got bang by a car while crossing the road... i realised that until now... all the people that i had trusted wif my 100% trust and those that i love so dearly all could nt accpect mi.... Had special confidence in the 3rd and 4th person that i trusted and love specially.... was very saD that Daex that the 3rd person could nt accepct mi... and the 4th person consoled mi... so nice and the4th person promise to never leave mi... but still that daex he said that he could nt accepct mi.... whats the use of saying sorry when i noe that u cannot accpect mi and even though u may try to pact it up but still in the end u will leave mi... Maybe i should had never open up myself to others... i will juz irrate others that will become my frenz... I should juz silently leave everyone... anyway no one will realise... JuZ forget mi la... treat it like i never ever existed... Ever since sec 2 then i never ever had the right to be angry...
I call someone also people hang up on mi... when i sae "hey stop it hor or i hang up" then they will sae "hang up la like i care" feel that i am reali worthless.... when someone is not needed in this world... that person is consider worthless... i have my pride too u noe... although i may be a gay but gay still guy rite? i nt like what little little girl who listens to whatever u sae and being hurt by what u sae and juz keep silent... U hurt mi still i must go to sae sorry to u... why am i so worthless? Haizz... mrs veda said that i have n0 self esteem but it is nt that way... it was you who took away my self esteem... i may need frenz alot... much more than others but that does nt mean that i dun have my pride too...
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
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